O: Daddy, let's play knights of the shining armor.
I've been in rehearsal or doing a show for the past two months and I just started rehearsal for a new show, so I'll be on the same schedule for the next two months. Most nights during the week, I'm not here for bedtime.
Bedtime has become Jim's domain. Evidently, after P goes to sleep, he and O enter a magical fantasy world with dragons, knights, and pillow forts. I hope, when I'm all done, I'll be invited too.
I love working. I love having a creative space. I love having actual conversations with adults. I love knowing that the girls are with Jim and that they are having pajama-clad adventures in our living room. I don't love missing playing knights of the shining armor. I don't love missing the soft, sweet smell of P's breath as she falls asleep in my arms. When I get home, they are already asleep, breathing softly. I don't love that.